Granny Gee

My Son, Tommy, has gone to Heaven now...

He walked into Heaven on May 29, 2010 from the sand at Myrtle Beach.

He was looking forward to playing at the beach with his little 3 year old son, Taban, for the first time.

They were running, squealing with joy, laughing. Tommy was sending me photos on his cellphone to my computer. His fingers slipped off the video, he collapsed there on the sand.

The phone rung, the caller ID showed Tommy was calling! I answered it, my mind became confused as I realized it wasn't Tommy, but.. a strange man's voice saying, 'I have a man lying here on the beach, he's not breathing'!

My life forever changed, he was my only child. Tommy had 2 blockages in his heart, he was 40 years old.

I am keeping my son's memory alive, my memory alive for my grandchildren. Taban and McKenzie. I don't have family left who can do that for me. I,write my life's stories, my thoughts here, everyday.

You will see a mother who has fought her way back from a very dark place to be here now. You will see a mother's real grief here and how she learns from all that's happened in her life.

I would like to grow older gracefully, not old,mean, bitter or angry. I love the light of the sunshine warming my heart and soul not letting any dark places remain there.

I can 'see' now on my life's path. I want to live. The light on my path shows me exactly where to go. it used to be so cold, dark. I was a lost soul for almost 2 years.