well im 15, and my name is Melody...im a nice person, but can be a real bitch if you make me. im a animal lover, i can't stand to see an animal hurt, nor a person (usually). im trying really hard to go vegetarian. But i do't really know what a blog is for..but im just gonna use it to express my personal feelings in my personal life, and i loooove quotes expecially love and broken heaart quotes so imma post them too(: oh and by the way the things that say: quote # i didnt write but anything that is just liked posted and doesnt say: ****I DID NOT WRITE THIS**** or quote # then i wrote it....thanks(: hope you like my work..and if you vote for me ill defintely vote for you back(:
My Wall
01/24/12
11:31 pm MelOdy
****I DID NOT WRITE THIS****
I say I’m not pretty. Not because I’m looking for attention or compliments, but because that’s truly how I feel. I don’t believe that I am pretty because I can see everything you don’t. I see how my stomach looks when I’m standing in my bra. I see the face under the make up. I see every little flaw about myself, even if you can’t. I say I’m not pretty because I’d be lying if I said I was.
11:25 pm MelOdy
****I DID NOT WRITE THIS****
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
but that don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let em out
but that don't bother me
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while even though
Goin' on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm okay
But that's not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away
And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder gettin' up, gettin' dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
11:23 pm MelOdy
****I DID NOT WRITE THIS****
Boy: I really like you will you please go out with me..?
Girl: Yes.
Boy: What?!?
Girl: Yes.
Boy: YES!
*girl starts to fall for the boy
*Exactly one month later:
Girls friend: I think it's time you broke up.
Girl: Okay..(secretly doesn't want to but is too afraid her friend will hate her if she said no)
Boy: Hey.
Girl: Hi.
Boy: How's it going?
Girl: it's fine.
Boy: What's wrong?
Girl: I think we should break up..
Boy: What..?
Girl: We should break up.
Boy: Why..?
Girl: it's just..we never see each other anymore..
Boy: I can change that.
Girl: I've never met your family..
Boy: I can change that.
Girl: I just don't feel that way for you anymore..
Boy: I wish I could change that.
Girl: I'm sorry.
Boy: I know.
Girl: I have to go.
Boy: Thanks for trying..
Next day:
Boy: Hey.
Girl: I'm sorry..
Boy: No I'm happy we broke up I could tell we weren't going anywhere too.
Girl: Okay.
Freshman year:
Girl: (Playing their song) I like him.I have since we first started dating,but I can't tell him;I can't tell anybody.
Sophomore year:
Boy: (Has a new girlfriend)
Girl: (Playing their song) I like him...I still do...but I can't tell him,I can't tell anybody.
Junior year:
Boy: (him and his girlfriend break up)
Girl: I like you.I always have and I always will.
Boy: I'm sorry, I like someone else.
Girl: (Runs away crying) The next day:
Boy: (Finds a note in his locker)
Note: I told you I like you,but I was wrong. I ment I love you, but you don't love me. I wish I could change that. I'm sorry for that day back in 8th grade. I really didn't want to. In gone now, I've been sick for a while now. By the time you read this I'll be in the hospital on life support. I just needed to tell you before I'm go; I love you. Don't forget that.
Boy: ( stares at the paper for a long time and runs down the hall, he went to her house, but she wasn't home)
The next day:
Boy: (Goes to the hospital and tells the nurse who he wants to see)
Nurse: It seems she checked out yesterday.
Boy: She's better?
Nurse: I'm afraid not. She had cancer and she passed away yesterday. I'm sorry.
Boy: (stares at the floor, he runs out the door and down the street)
The next day:
At her funeral,
Boy: (Asks to speak)
Boy: A thew days ago I received a note from her.
(He reads the note) and I wanted to tell her before she left that I loved her, I love her.
I loved her for a long time and there is nothing I can do now.
Nothing.
All I can say is I love you and now your gone..I wish I could change that.
Boy: (Starts crying and so does everyone else)
The boy ends up marrying her friend who told her to break up with him. When he found out that she did that, he killed himself to be with the girl he really loves.
He was 28.
11:20 pm MelOdy
quote #1
Heaven's not a place that you go when you die
It's that moment in life when you actually feel alive
So live for the moment
And take this advice, live by every word
Love is just a hoax so forget anything that you have heard
And live for the moment now
01/22/12
4:51 pm MelOdy
It's funny how your whole life can just fall apart in just in minutes, seconds. Everything you ever hoped, and dreamed of, fanish from before your eyes. Your hearts aching, not knowing what to do. Not knowing how this happened because of you...i do not understand. I do not understand why you did not tell me. Yeah, something would of changed, and yeah, something would not of happened; but wouldn't you rather to not do it, than to see me hurt and scared? Nothing would of happened, if i would pf known sooner. But atleast my feelings would have stayed the same. It's funny how you think that nothing bad will ever happen to you, but then you find out that it did, or that there's a chance that something big and bad is going to happen. Somthing life changing or life taking. It's all a matter of time. When you least expect it, it comes rushing at you throwing you on the floor. But what hurts the most is that now your gone.
01/19/12
6:15 pm MelOdy
I see him in my dreams and when i wake up i can't stop thinking of him. He's non-stop in my brain. He just won't go away, His image, His face, His voice. I wish he were here, here by my side. I wish i could talk to him, and hear his voice, because this is killing me inside. I HATE not being able to have any contact with him. I want him to come rescue me and get me out of this misery. I want him to take me somewhere far away and we will never look back. If only, if only it were that easy. I'm scared that he will find someone better, someone prettier, someone who can give him what i never could; what i never can. My feelings are strong. I'll do ANYTHING to make him happy. i long for his touch, to hear his voice. I long to know to know the real him, for him to know the real me. If he knew the real me, would he still love me? It's killing me inside I just wish you knew how mich i really do love you.