I have never blogged before, but I have always written until becoming a stay-at-home mom. It seems that some how I lost a piece of my identity when I had children. Instead of being the wanton, educated, smart,gorgeous and witty sex goddess(that existed a least in my head)I am the baseball cap, sweat pant wearing mom of three young children, who no longer has time for pedicures and massages. I don't know when I realized that I lost a piece of myself...the exact moment, but I do remember suddenly waking up to discover this stressed out stranger staring at me in the mirror. She had my face, my smile, my clothes and even sounded like me, but was somehow diffent. I am hoping to find a space here to re-introduce myself to me. The me that loved to write and express myself. Maybe blogging will help with that connection. Or maybe it will just give me a quiet moment to myself. Either way I anticipate this journey to be very interesting.
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07/03/09
7:36 am Jumar Ydulzura
it really happen to lots of people lose themselves when they got married but still lucky to have gain a child and a family just loosen up sometime go out and be anonymous it will help you get your old you
06/30/09
9:28 am Shawn
Another Hollywood death...What is going on? It is very sobering to see and hear all of these seemingly untimely deaths of celebrities or TV personalities. I feel abundantly blessed and sincerly content to be just who I am.
06/29/09
9:08 am Shawn
Had an amazing day yesterday with the family. We took the kids out to an amusement park for Twins day and everyone had a blast. I forgot how much fun it is to ride a roller coaster and scream like the boogie-man is coming to get you, or eat an ice cream cone while it dribbles down your fingers. We all got to act silly for the day, there we no schedules to keep, we tossed napping right out the window and did exactly what we wanted. I vow to have a day like that at least once a month, not at an amusement park mind you, but just in general. No schedules, no "musts" on the list, just doing as we please. Life is too short and I have go to loosen up!!
06/27/09
12:48 pm Rochala
Oh I am soooo glad that my daughter is all grown up with a child of her own.
Re "those who scream the loudest" it comes under the heading of transference (a Freudian view) and unconsciously they are yelling at themselves. If I scream about you, then people won't look at me so closely. Really kind of a whacky thing, but a real ego defense mechanism. P.S. when kids are resistant to everything, it is a stage when they are trying to assert themselves as "me"not"you." Just a developmental thing unless there is some underlying issue. Kids become what we say to them. "Bad boy" can grow older and act out that role. Not good. Positive reinforcement helps. And "I love you and don't want to be mean to you. Come tell me." If you don't know how to do positive reinforcement, let me know. Don't use food like cookies, candies, et. Praise is best. Like training a puppy (or a husband)praise the behavior you want repeated, and try to disregard the rest. Little steps.
06/29/09 9:02 am Shawn
Your right, Im trying the positive reinforcement thing with him as well as spending one on one time with each of my little ones, my oldest son is really responding well to that. I definately think he is trying to assert himself but Lord knows it is a true struggle in balancing letting him "grow up" and just taking over.
06/26/09
9:09 pm Shawn
I love to cook, in my head I'm a five star chef. I even toyed with the idea of going to culinary school and then I saw HELL's Kitchen and quickly decided pressure like that would suck all the joy for cooking I had away.... Been thinking about quite a few things today...like what do you do when someone you trust doesn't turn out to be the person you thought they were? How do you start trusting again? It seems no one is immune, look at the Gov. of SC. I applaud his wife for not standing beside him at the press conference. Enough is enough already. Why is it that those who scream the loudest about family values are the first to violate them?
5:26 pm Shawn
My kids are at the park with my hubby. The Silence is absolutely delicious, like a nice crisp glass of Riesling. Wow, I may be talking myself into actually having a glass of wine! I need it after today. My son who is a twin and three and 1/2 yrs old was really difficult to deal with today. I swear I don't know how to deal with him rationally at times and fear that I may be giving in to him just to get some peace. That's never good. Especially when I have two other little one's to contend with. It takes so much energy to do the rt thing with children and even more when they are resistant to EVERYTHING!! Thank Goodness they start camp on Monday, then it will be me and my little guy, he's two and a pure delight. No terrible two's yet...perhaps I should bite my tongue? On another note I couldn't stop thinking about the passing of Farrah and MJ. It surely puts life into perspective.