Smurfy

Its the morning after i can just tell today isnt going to be my day. WHy do people saay they love you but know they don't mean it? Why do people like to hurt other peoples feeling when all they were to them was nice and kind and loving and thought full? I guess some people arent ready for love but just donj't know how to tell you. I wake up and my mind is racing and racing and racing thinking about what if i didnt say that that day or what if we wasnt long dtance or what if i was in college and could jus get up and go see her? Yah some people may say this is just a learning experience and that you should just bounce back because they lost a good thing, but itss not that easy to just bounce back. I dont like feeling like this why is God letting me feel like this he knows ive been at my breaking point once before. From now on words don't mean anything> To get me He/She has to work for my love just as much as i am going to be working for theirs. Why does this always happen to me? The girl who treats you like a queen or king? the girl that would never cheat on you but yet you can cheat on her. Yes i know love hurts sometimes but i hope i never feel more hurt than i do now. All i ask is for love back. i didnt want your money or anything i just wanted you to LOVEEE MEEE to say BABY i LOVE YOU and actually MEAN IT!!! But i guess that was just to much to ask for. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh i just want to scream ahhhhhhhh ahhhhhhhh ahhhhh ahhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh im so frustrated ugh! Get over it Gari I tell myself. I try but it hard very hard! WHY DID YOU PLAY WITH MY HEART. I hope carma comes n bites you in the ASSSSSSS! you will not defeat me im coming up on top i didnt need you you needed me n ur going to miss me but guess wht you can never have meeee anymore!

Hi im Gari this i s my first time using this. My body is aching, fingers are numb. Why did I love her so much. I gave her my heart I gave her my soul why would she how could she cheat on me? Im a pastors daughter and I sinned over God. I like girls and she asked me to come out to my parents who i knew wouldnt like it. I came out to my parents and she broke up with me i could have just left it a secret!... Why do i feel like my heart is being squashed? why do i feel like i want to throw up everytime i close my eyes n see them big pretty eyes and that huge smile?. why does this always happen to me?. I know im only 16 but i have feelings to. My soul feels trapped and she has the key. God i know i am sinning against you but please help me through this! I need to get through this and i will