hi all! im extraordinary (xo) i think god has abandoned me... it all started when i had my first seizure on november 9th. afterthat, i suffered from depression. the whole time i prayed to god to help me. i became suicidal. i still prayed for god to help me. i met with a shrink and i was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. at that time i wondered if god was lisening to me or if he was even out there. about a week later, my parents decided to get a divorce and have been constantly fighting eversence. everynight i prayed to god to help me with my hard times. but nothing happened. in fact it got worse. 8 days ago, god gave my dad a brain tumor so i now assume that god isnt lisening to me. sometimes i ask myself, why would god do this?why hasnt he answered my prayers? is this some form of punisment? what dd i do wrong?all i kno is that god has stopped existing in my eyes and if he is out there, he has a pretty sick sense of humor. what can i do to get through this? i need help. if u have any advice or anything at all, id really like to hear it.- x.o
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11/26/10
9:22 am Adeyera
God can do it. With God all thing are possible. All need is faith. The just shall live by faith.You can overcome depression.
06/22/10
2:21 am Jimlayton
I have a friend who had a tumor and was operated on and is doing well but had to retire and is still recovering. I know it must be so terrible. You have the right to be angry and I believe that your circumstances does not change who you are but instead defines what you will be.
05/31/09
11:26 pm Dazling
hi extraordinary...hope you could drop by in my site and vote for me ....tnx
12:52 am Extraordinary
hi all, extraordinary here. updates on my dad,he went to the doctor and they said that would run some more tests until they make any decisions on how to remove it. today my mom was trying to talk religious to me. and i told her about some of my opinions. she just told me that god loves me very much. well why does he punish me and let me suffer. if im bleeding on the floor right next to him then why doesnt he hold out a hand? i guess my life also could be alot worse. god just seems to be pushing the limit with me.thanks again for everyones kind words. they have really got me thinking! more to come soon! -x.o
05/30/09
6:22 am Tabbats
God is Good..
6:21 am Tabbats
about religion?i'm a christian too but i'm fully aware that it won't lead me to salvation.religion is just a device made by human beings to have a contact with God. A lot of religion today,sprouting like mushrooms,try to prove the world that they are the 'right' one and every other religion is nothing but a fraud.Do you believe in them? Let's say Christianity is the only thing that will lead you to salvation,what will you feel as a Christian?Now, what about the people born in the middle east having a different way of communicating with God?Are they going to be damned?What if I will tell you that these people are more into prayer than Christians. Do you think God will Choose us or the people in the mid east?think.
6:12 am Tabbats
Hi extraordinary,
I myself can't explain the dinosaur stuff. But here's the thing,there were artifacts related to King Alexander's ruling being gathered and kept safe now[I can't recall where the archaeologists kept it] but I don't want to argue about your beliefs. God endowed us conscience, use it ,like a compass, it will lead to the right place. I,before, doubted God's existence, believing in my own thoughts, and by using intellect can prove others that I am correct.But here's what I found out[by using my intellect- God's laws are unbreakable,we will only break ourselves against them.
05/28/09
12:16 am Extraordinary
hi all, extraordinary here. i thought of something very big today. now i challenge any one at all to try and prove this point wrong. i doubt that anyone can.... so the bible tells us that god created adam and eve and every living thing in the garden of eden. but what about dinosaurs??? where do they fit into everything? there is proof that they once existed. you see, one problem that i have as a christain is that my logic and scientific mind always gets in the way. but i believe that i make a good point. if anyone at all can logically answer my question, it will clear things up alot! -x.o
05/22/09
12:56 am Extraordinary
hi all, extraordinary here. today i heard a song on the radio. i felt that it really explained how i feel. it was called open wounds by skillet. if you want, go to youtube to look it up.if you have any advice, comment-x.o
12:41 am Zigsaw
hey XO , believe in urself rather ..religion , religion came from us .... religion came from heart of humans just like us .... so listen to ur heart .... listen to ur self ...
have faith in god , coz he lives in u ,
not in church , or temple or in mosque ,
same for meh to ... i just am searching fo reason to gett out of ma house ..
just tired of watching ppl fightin n gettin involved in fighting ...
follow urself ... make a right decision n make ur self happy ...
we were born crying , life is short to live yet long enough to suffer ,
so just find urself happy in anything n everything possible ...
wish u all the happiness ..
zigsaw
05/20/09
11:58 pm Extraordinary
hi all, xo here, thanks zigsaw, i really apreciate the kind words, i hope we will get through our hard times.
i have decided to blog my daily events so that anyone willing to give advice will know where im coming from. so today, i went to my shrink who i visit every other wednesday. she is the teen shrink that i got only because im just 14. but we talked about my home life. she found out that i dont like being at my house at all. on account of my parents fighting. and most of the time i will look foor reasons to not be at home. i also have decided to stop going to church because nothing was happening while i was there. maybe christianity isnt for everyone. well im still really confused about stuff so if u have any advice, just leave me some love through comment. id really love to hear it. extraordinary
3:08 am Zigsaw
hi extraordinary ,
seems like u goin through hard time ..
sorry not seems like ..
u really are going through hard times ..
i can feel ur pain .....
meh here suffering hard time too ...
day n day again i have to live wid all my head aches which i just cant share wid ppl ... coz no one seems to care ..
its all my problem , mine n mine only .
thou i dont kno u i kno ppl need smone listening to them at hard times ..
want to be a friend wid meh ????