― So yesterday i had a complete breakdown... i lost control and couldn't stop crying i felt like shit, i felt like i was worthless and a disappointment and a waste of space. i just wanted to stop hurting and be able to not fake being happy and actually be happy. its so hard to have these feelings and not be able to control them. if it wasn't for my husband i would have slit my self up nice and good yesterday. ∙ but 3 years ago when everything hit the fan way worst than i am now and i was [...].