― Worrying non stop about my first love the one you no longer read much about since he left the nest. ∙ I knew motherhood came with worry, heartache and guilt but its the lack of control that drives us mothers crazy. To be able to place imaginary wings as they fall down... to be able to slow them down when they need to go slow. To spare them from all and any pain. If you have previously read these pages you know what comes next... ∙ So I left the coop on the search for peace and [...].