― it's fairly safe to say that i am a unhot mess right now. everything has come crashing down in less than 24 hours. that's how it always happens in my life though. when it rains, it always pours. i need to start cherishing those moments when things are only a little fucked up because that seems to be as good as it gets. ∙ so now, i'm applying for jobs (if anyone is the socal area knows of anything please email me). i'm trying to have some kind of fucked up friendship with the person that [...].