I was once fallen inlove with somebody, badly. He had been part of my life. I have considered him as to be my one and only. Before, when I was with him, I haven't felt his love for me. I became as his buttered girlfriend. Despite of this, I was able to forgive and forget all the hurtings he had caused to me. Nobody could set us apart, not even my parents. When we were together, I was the one who sustained for our daily needs. However, at first, I accepted the fact that his feeling of being inloved with me had gone but, that time, I was tranced and still deeply infatuated with him. Untill such time that I could no longer hold this feeling of being hurt by somebody without thinking of myself and to the entire of me as well.
I did not expect that at my age, 22 years old, I was inloved with a 44-year old dj. The reason why I sustained for the daily needs for the both of us was that he has his own family to be cared of and he has kids to be sent to school.
I stood for what I felt, I fought for him. But, he did not even realize my worth as his gf.
With this, I was given some pieces of advice by my friends and to my parents as well. That's why, I have given myself an importance and went out for a vacation. At this time, I have made up my mind, I broke up with him, I was still in the realm of light and dark. And so, I have realized that there are still guys around me who are better than him if I just make my eyes to be widely opened. Then, I have already moved on with the help of this stranger whom I met when I had my vacation. I thank god for giving me this guy who helped me to forget the past and who cured the wound caused by that stupid ex boyfriend. my futile fantasy has already stopped and preparing myself to live with this newly found lover.
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10/13/11
2:54 am Shiela
all of the hurting things its done now my life its full of satisfacton and happy for the little cute son and kind sweet husband life is more of trials so its depend of our life how to handle of it , the most of important i been that experience and cured the hurting things ......
05/10/09
8:50 am Chadniesci
its ok,evrythings gonna be alright
05/08/09
4:27 pm Habitual Harmony
hi Sheila hope U dint lie urself & us. da idea tat u r evading urself to someone during ur vacation & tat u forgot ur ex boyfriend....a fake..If so ur stressing urself badly. Be pretty sure to trust someone before falling in to deep relationship again. coz 44 is a Fake & 22 is a piece of cake. hope u understand wat i meant. coz tis is the time one can fake u to be on bed. The Best thing i suggest is hang around with ur galfriends(schoolmates)visit places with them may be u can stick around with ur mom sharing ideas while cutting vegetables or getting Grocerries. Imagine a day if u have a daughter who does not care ur words & goes behind an asshole whos not bothered would u like it !! U luk brilliant child dont make tat luks go waste.
04/26/09
1:52 pm Jason
hi sheila.. gud day..being in-love is so easy and..u touch d other lives of other lover..and i'm so happy that u easily move on..jst take gud care and enjoy ur life to the fullest:-)
03/23/09
5:10 am Somee
hi Sheila, sometimes life and love can be really unfair to us and sometimes love isn't life as much as life isn't love. it's you as an individual who is important. you can't let people walk all over you.You have your own dignity and have the right to be loved for who you are and not for what you can earn, don't let anyone use you for their benefits. in the meantime, love will come to you: but be careful, listen to your conscience and do not be afraid to choose what you think is right.. God bless!
02/02/09
1:45 pm Shelaur
Hi there! I started a blog/forum for people to just chat about life. I found that sometimes I liked having the back and forth and knowing that someone was reading. It would be great if you could join and continue or start a discussion in the forums!
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Hope to see you there!
01/25/09
7:14 am Samantha
hi how r u