Natasha ∙ 19 weeks ago
This is a tough one. Forgiveness. To forgive. To let go of bad feelings, anger, resentments. . .to pardon an injustice.
Forgiveness is one of the most difficult obstacles for me personally. I can forgive others - with effort. But myself? Well, I am still working on that one. I will let you know how that goes when I get there. . .
Forgetting? I am not so sure that would be a good idea even if it were possible. If the thing that occurred was of such substance that it needed to be forgiven then the memory tends to stick - unless we block it subconsciously. If we forget, aren't we just doomed to repeat it? Isn't that the point of the history lessons we endure in grade school?
If I ever manage to forgive myself for neglecting my children while using - I don't think I would want to forget. If I forget the horrible things I did, the wretched person I became, then I may forget the reason why I decided to stray from that lifestyle. I mean, I enjoyed the way the drugs made me feel, otherwise drugs wouldn't have become a problem for me in the first place. That's one of the sayings in recovery - "don't forget where you came from". It helps you to have compassion for the people who are there now, and helps keep you from returning there.
That's just my take on it anyway.