thank you for all your comment.but somehow each time when i am ineed.i cant tell you all the things that im goin tru and went tru in life.but i have noone to turn to.i stoped seekin advise from the minister cause his never there,and i even heard that someone has told the minister about their problem,and it got leaked out and everyone looked at this person with contempt and to top all things,anyone's family is not perfect,just for instant if a family member in the family passed away or divorced or something.ppl tend to look at you diffrently.when my late mom was around,everyone talked,smiled,greeted and even shake your and say hai,now the whole congragation just stop & stare at me.so i stoped attendin any mass...but that doesnt mean i stoped prayin.i do but each time,it seems like im bein abondon.i know there are ppl out there with probs worst then mine.but dont i count?thats a pic of me wishin i was dead.to tell you guys the truth.im beyond repair.i cant get up anymore...